MY GRANDMOTHER >>MY 2ND MOTHER<<

I decided to dedicate today's blog to my grandmother. My grandmother was born January 24, 1926. Now some of you may think that that is old, and it is, but my grandmother is one of my bestfriends and she is the "glue" that holds my family together. As I sit here and reflect on the many things that she has taught me, I can't help but thank God for her. Some of the stories that she has told us over the years, I don't think I could have survived and conquered some of the trials that she faced. She worked and worked so that our family would have something more. She has been there through it all. She has given me some tough words over the years but I can't help but love her. She has seen me go through some tough times. I can remember as a child, she would always tell me that God could fix anything you put before him. He might make you struggle a little while before he steps in to help, but he's always on time. Now I didn't understand what she meant by that when I was a child, but now that I am a young adult I get it. She means more to me than I could ever express to her. When I was a child she took care of me but now that I am an adult and she is old I vow to take care of her. I love her so much. Sometimes we have our little "fits" but at the end of the day, I know she's got my back and I got hers. I take pride in my grandmother because she has been through the struggle. God has kept her here for 21 years of my life and I can only hope that he'll keep her here many more. I love you Granny!! I don't know what I would do without you and my Momma.

Signing off,
..&& SaSHA iMAN

Still Say, Thank You >>Love This<<

http://www.imeem.com/artists/smokie_norful/music/MBBmk0hj/smokie-norful-still-say-thank-you-i-need-you-now-album-vers/

This song explains just the way I feel. I couldn't have said it any better. Hope ya'll enjoy.

Signing off,
&&..Sasha Iman

HAPPY HAPPY JOY JOY

Oh where shall I begin?? I'm happy now. I finally realized that I deserve to have joy in my life. I'm finally at peace with everything that has happened. I miss SOS terribly but I know they're somewhere looking down on me. I think of them everyday. Just because you are gone SOS doesn't mean that you are forgotten. I love you and I always will. Sometimes I would wonder if I would ever get back to this point in my life because it seemed as though I was spiraling downhill in a black hole and I was never going to return. I was down and out and I just felt like it was near the end for me. I cried and I cried. Tears would stream down my face and I wouldn't even know why. I was depressed and just down. But I'm stronger now and I'm still standing. Inspite of what I've been through I still have joy. I exploded on people, cried til I couldn't cry anymore, just went through. It was an experience that I don't wish on anyone. Was mad just because. It seemed easier to be mad than to continue to cry over a situation that could not be helped. I love my life and the people in it. Some might say I love too hard and that may be true. When I love someone that person has all of me. I don't half-step I'm fully committed. So in the end I'm still the same loving and caring person that I always was, only now I keep my heart guarded. I love ya'll and I hope that you found my words meaningful. They came straight from the heart. Catch you on the flip. Ciao

Felt this way for a long time...Oh well..Maybe next time ;-)
http://www.imeem.com/artists/brooke_hogan/music/mwFB_zp9/brooke-hogan-hey-yo/

Signing off,
Sasha Iman