UNKNOWN

Yesterday. October 12, 2009. Where do I begin? My day started out rough. It was rough mostly because the night before I didn't sleep good at all. I went to bed with things on my mind and woke up with things on my mind. Funny how life plays out huh? Went to class and I still didn't feel like myself. I'm usually the person that can take charge of how I'm feeling and put a smile on my face even when I'm feeling down and out. I couldn't seem to do that yesterday. It just seemed as though nothing was going right and I was gonna break down at any moment. Then after my math class went to the library and got on Facebook. Chatted with a friend about what was going on in my head. He told me what was what. I can honestly say that I was so mad and so heated that I was in a RAGE! Then I just wanted to cry. Couldn't cry in the library it's too public. So I went to my next class feeling like "damn that's how you really feel?" Couldn't even focus in that class I was there physically but my mind was somewhere else. Got back to the room and just let go. Crying and asking myself why. I already knew the answer. Wanted to go blow up, but what good was that gonna do. I feel like I wanna go let off some steam. Me and a few peeps are going to the gun range and I'm gonna let out all of this anger and frustration. Had my whole F THE WORLD attitude going on. But why the whole world? The world didn't do it to me. All I know is I cried my last tear yesterday. No more of this for that. I can only be me, I don't know how to turn myself on and off. We'll see what happens in the long run. Just know this. I'm happy and I won't let anyone steal my joy EVER again.

This song was what I was feeling
http://www.imeem.com/artists/amanda_perez/music/7Du6vh-q/amanda-perez-angel/

Signing off,
Sasha~Fierce